Heaven for the weather, Hell for the company

I’m broker than I’ve ever been
I was suspended from my job
Someone I care about, in pretty sure doesn’t want me around.
I can’t catch a break.
I can’t find anyone new to talk to.

I need a change and I feel stuck.

Just a shitty year so far and it’s probably going to get shittier.

I give it two weeks.  Dare to ask why I’m going to be so cold.

Felt so many emotions at once.. Or at least I think.

Right now I am..

Happy cause I spent time with friends

Content cause I am on suspension

Sad cause I am alone

Tired of being this way

Angry cause I am all of the above..

I have been such a ball of emotion lately.  I can honestly cry at the drop of hat if someone just asked me “hey what’s wrong?” and didn’t take my “I’m fine” as an answer.  I just want to vent to the people in my life, but then is it fair cause I know they have things to deal with.  I am the first to ask what’s going on with them, and listen to everything, but I just feel that I can’t do the same with them.

I suffer in silence and I don’t know what to do with myself.  I just want to know how to deal?

blogsecret:

i don’t know what my problem is. when you ask me what’s wrong and i say nothing i mean it because there’s nothing in particular playing on my mind, but i don’t feel right, i don’t feel like i used to, i’m not happy anymore.